hey! happy new year!
2008 saw me turn a corner or two!
1. g'bye rt! you are great and i wish you all good things! but even w/ a brief, somewhat confusing relapse around this time in 08, goodbye, goodbye! it couldn't have worked out better for each of us.
2. at some point, the sky cleared. i still miss my mom -- i cannot read old writings from her last days, and i still cannot let my mind recall certain things about her last days-- but at some point i climbed out of bed and was able to stand up straight? how and when that was, i don't even exactly recall. but it happened. thank god.
3. i raced my best mile ever! woo! ...and then a few months later ran dealt with some work stress by running 7miles at my 3mi pace and promptly put myself out of commission for the longest time. literally since the last week of september til this one. fucking OW. but whatever! a break was maybe good? i want to run more than *anything* right now, and tomorrow's the day i lace up my shoes and try again! if i can do 5 minutes without my ankle complaining, i'll be fucking *jubilant*!
4. steeeeeeeeeve. there is a picture that was taken on saturday and materialized in my inbox today that brings me joy just to see it and feel it again. we are both listening, watching and laughing at the marriage celebration of one of his colleagues, and while i know the happiness i FEEL always these days, i don't often have visible evidence of it. there are pictures of us making goofy faces and pictures of us pretending we're at prom, and pictures of us pretending to be very, very serious and pictures of us drowsing on grass beside friends... but i think this is the first that i've seen of us just sitting there laughing and glowing. it's good. it's very, very good. all of it, april to now and, god, i hope from now on. we each have our days, our job stress, our garbage, but hey: we also now have each other and everything else seems to be falling into place. pretty sweet. thank you, '08.
5. g'bye, jc! g'bye, nj! i will work on you until i have reason to get the hell out of the east coast (secret: i know that this will happen. i am not saying when, b/c that is definitely a secret). i am keeping the po box as my permanent mailing address in jc as long as i am working at the school-- i pass it on my way to the train-- but as of dec 31, i have hung my hat in brooklyn. i have two lovely ladies for company, and the red-walled livingroom i have wanted for a long time. with books, walls of books. some of them are exactly the ones (same edition, even!) of books i brokenheartedly released in my pre-move purge. i am pleased with the location of this place-- by car, it is 5 minutes from steve's and 26 minutes from work (off-peak traffic, reverse commute); by train, it is 10 & 50; by bike it is 15 to steve's and not really as feasible to work, but i've made my peace with the fact that my blue bike will no longer be locked outside my school from 8-6 every day. poor noah, though, has been bummed since he learned the absence of my blue bike is permanent. "what? what? why? why not your bike there, hmmmm?" sorry, kiddo. it pedals my heart, too, not just my body & bookbag. there is also the metropolitan pool close by -- $75 for the YEAR, guys. for the YEAR.-- and endless yoga both cool and hot. and once my ankle is cooperating, it's a decent run into the LES and back. and movies and movies and movies and music and music and music and art and art and art and soap and soap and soap. ladies and gentlemen, moving is a bitch but the new digs are sweet. i am stoked.
2009.
i have to keep unpacking etc, but it's gotten off to a good start and i'm sure i'll fill you in at some point...
1. g'bye rt! you are great and i wish you all good things! but even w/ a brief, somewhat confusing relapse around this time in 08, goodbye, goodbye! it couldn't have worked out better for each of us.
2. at some point, the sky cleared. i still miss my mom -- i cannot read old writings from her last days, and i still cannot let my mind recall certain things about her last days-- but at some point i climbed out of bed and was able to stand up straight? how and when that was, i don't even exactly recall. but it happened. thank god.
3. i raced my best mile ever! woo! ...and then a few months later ran dealt with some work stress by running 7miles at my 3mi pace and promptly put myself out of commission for the longest time. literally since the last week of september til this one. fucking OW. but whatever! a break was maybe good? i want to run more than *anything* right now, and tomorrow's the day i lace up my shoes and try again! if i can do 5 minutes without my ankle complaining, i'll be fucking *jubilant*!
4. steeeeeeeeeve. there is a picture that was taken on saturday and materialized in my inbox today that brings me joy just to see it and feel it again. we are both listening, watching and laughing at the marriage celebration of one of his colleagues, and while i know the happiness i FEEL always these days, i don't often have visible evidence of it. there are pictures of us making goofy faces and pictures of us pretending we're at prom, and pictures of us pretending to be very, very serious and pictures of us drowsing on grass beside friends... but i think this is the first that i've seen of us just sitting there laughing and glowing. it's good. it's very, very good. all of it, april to now and, god, i hope from now on. we each have our days, our job stress, our garbage, but hey: we also now have each other and everything else seems to be falling into place. pretty sweet. thank you, '08.
5. g'bye, jc! g'bye, nj! i will work on you until i have reason to get the hell out of the east coast (secret: i know that this will happen. i am not saying when, b/c that is definitely a secret). i am keeping the po box as my permanent mailing address in jc as long as i am working at the school-- i pass it on my way to the train-- but as of dec 31, i have hung my hat in brooklyn. i have two lovely ladies for company, and the red-walled livingroom i have wanted for a long time. with books, walls of books. some of them are exactly the ones (same edition, even!) of books i brokenheartedly released in my pre-move purge. i am pleased with the location of this place-- by car, it is 5 minutes from steve's and 26 minutes from work (off-peak traffic, reverse commute); by train, it is 10 & 50; by bike it is 15 to steve's and not really as feasible to work, but i've made my peace with the fact that my blue bike will no longer be locked outside my school from 8-6 every day. poor noah, though, has been bummed since he learned the absence of my blue bike is permanent. "what? what? why? why not your bike there, hmmmm?" sorry, kiddo. it pedals my heart, too, not just my body & bookbag. there is also the metropolitan pool close by -- $75 for the YEAR, guys. for the YEAR.-- and endless yoga both cool and hot. and once my ankle is cooperating, it's a decent run into the LES and back. and movies and movies and movies and music and music and music and art and art and art and soap and soap and soap. ladies and gentlemen, moving is a bitch but the new digs are sweet. i am stoked.
2009.
i have to keep unpacking etc, but it's gotten off to a good start and i'm sure i'll fill you in at some point...
posted by raritan at 8:49 PM
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